Okay so marks are in! Wow i did terrible....and I'm dirt poor. Okay actually i failed, and heve $25 to my name. Mind you I do have a nice wardrobe. So with the good comes the bad, I did fail out, and I'm being asked to leave the college, But I have a few options. I opened up my e-mail today and was offered an internship downtown Toronto. Excellent right... Maybe, then i thought I'd live downtown, I'd work my job, and do my internship, and come May I'd have wild expierence and apply for the big internship with a fashion Magazine. More expierence, my resume would look impressive, and i'd be saving more money for college, and lifes all good! - wrong. I have no place to live in Toronto, no money to get a place, which means no internship, no impressive resume...I just don't kno.

I feel compelled to move to Toronto though. Like its one of thoes risks that need to be done. What if Bob Dylan never moved to New York at 18? I am Bob Dylan, I think its one of thoes things that needs to be done. While I'm young an irrational, it makes sense. If I was old i would be chasing an invisible dream. You need to struggle to get somewhere...I think. My options come down to live at home- save money, make money. Or Go to the big city, maybe make money, meet contacts in the industry, and get going with my life. Fork in the road much. David Foster once said "What you say no to, is just as important as what you say yes to." -Im not to sure this applys...but it made sense when I heard it. Maybe I can take the internship in a later month...when i have saved up more money, and then take the other internship later as well.

I don't know, if anyone has any uplifting advise/ stories...comment, tell me.