Wait my blog is called Sara in the City for a reason....I need goals... dreams, and to be pratical at the same time! I need to go to the City, I will find a way! ...untill I get my fathers oppinion... That won't be pretty.

Okay so marks are in! Wow i did terrible....and I'm dirt poor. Okay actually i failed, and heve $25 to my name. Mind you I do have a nice wardrobe. So with the good comes the bad, I did fail out, and I'm being asked to leave the college, But I have a few options. I opened up my e-mail today and was offered an internship downtown Toronto. Excellent right... Maybe, then i thought I'd live downtown, I'd work my job, and do my internship, and come May I'd have wild expierence and apply for the big internship with a fashion Magazine. More expierence, my resume would look impressive, and i'd be saving more money for college, and lifes all good! - wrong. I have no place to live in Toronto, no money to get a place, which means no internship, no impressive resume...I just don't kno.

I feel compelled to move to Toronto though. Like its one of thoes risks that need to be done. What if Bob Dylan never moved to New York at 18? I am Bob Dylan, I think its one of thoes things that needs to be done. While I'm young an irrational, it makes sense. If I was old i would be chasing an invisible dream. You need to struggle to get somewhere...I think. My options come down to live at home- save money, make money. Or Go to the big city, maybe make money, meet contacts in the industry, and get going with my life. Fork in the road much. David Foster once said "What you say no to, is just as important as what you say yes to." -Im not to sure this applys...but it made sense when I heard it. Maybe I can take the internship in a later month...when i have saved up more money, and then take the other internship later as well.

I don't know, if anyone has any uplifting advise/ stories...comment, tell me.

So I'm new to this. If there are any pointers...please feel free to let me know.

Currently im a Fashion Merchandising student in Toronto. It's somewhat hard and not what i expected, but I'm okay with it. My goal for my fashion career right now is to apply for several internships, and in the event that i don't make it, maybe I'll apply for a fabulous job at Holt Renfrew. Career wise I'm still drawing a blank for the most part. I have Montreal in mind, but no experience other than your average retail associate at a well respected clothing store. Montreal is Canada's Big Apple, it is Our claim to fashion fame...and for the longest time i thought Toronto was.

As of the dating nonsense, it 's pure brilliance to me! I do have a goal in mind, and its as simple as meeting great guys. Now let me tell you a bit about myself, I've never been in anything remote to a relationship. I've never dated before. I've had numerous crushes, rocked the single life, and its been working fine for me... I've always been more of a Samantha Jones than a Kerry Bradshaw. My personality is rebellious, I like to do my own thing, I like to party (but not in the irresponsible Lindsey, Brittney, Paris Hilton, wannabe I need to go to rehab because i think I'm a tragic celebrity way.) Genuinely I like to have fun...all the time. I'm the first person to suggest crazy, spontaneous, things to do. With this wild personality in mind, I'm somewhat conservative (not politics, dress and attitude towards men). I don't like to dress provocative, friends say I'm somewhat modest. I just think when you slut it up, your going to attract creepers, and more importantly give off the wrong impression to the man you like. I don't want guys to look at me and think;
"shes hot, I'd tap that" or "she looks like she'd be good at giving head"
because that could be any girl. Any girl can be hot, and slutty, and easy. I'd rather a man look at me and think;
"she is beautiful"
Just when I walk in the room i want to command a respect for men, not be objectified. OK moral of the story!! DON'T DRESS LIKE A HOE, AND DON'T B E A HOE....there is no self respect in that, and a man you like won't respect you for it...they'll just want to have sex with you.